Listening to the sound of the rain and just resting my head after very intense and inspired days…
I enjoyed to grab happiness by the moment and just feel whatever happens in this moment. I smile remembering good times and whatever way I go now, it became richer and more inspired. I realised once again I am a loner because I still don’t know anything about relationships, how to be with someone, what to do… But I also now know that this does not matter, because sharing good company and good connections is a beautiful excitement in this life adventure. I can only suffer if I build plans and illusions… And yes of course we all have dreams and moments where this happens but I recognise it better these days and let myself go with the flow of life, in whatever direction it takes me, instead of getting lost in plans or idealising things too quickly, I just am more reflective. I don’t want to feel scared anymore to lose someone because in the end, I only lose myself if I let this fear grow over my life. It is a hard rocky way sometimes yes, with some scars that are deeper and can hurt again some days but in the end, it is worth to take risks. I do not regret a thing.
"If I could, I would also be chasing the sun
Another naive soul just craving for light
But I'm my own shine travelling through time
Spheres of shadows and visions
Blocked out of this sight
On the solitary side of darkness
Beating pulse in a stranger time and space."
I enjoyed to grab happiness by the moment and just feel whatever happens in this moment. I smile remembering good times and whatever way I go now, it became richer and more inspired. I realised once again I am a loner because I still don’t know anything about relationships, how to be with someone, what to do… But I also now know that this does not matter, because sharing good company and good connections is a beautiful excitement in this life adventure. I can only suffer if I build plans and illusions… And yes of course we all have dreams and moments where this happens but I recognise it better these days and let myself go with the flow of life, in whatever direction it takes me, instead of getting lost in plans or idealising things too quickly, I just am more reflective. I don’t want to feel scared anymore to lose someone because in the end, I only lose myself if I let this fear grow over my life. It is a hard rocky way sometimes yes, with some scars that are deeper and can hurt again some days but in the end, it is worth to take risks. I do not regret a thing.
"If I could, I would also be chasing the sun
Another naive soul just craving for light
But I'm my own shine travelling through time
Spheres of shadows and visions
Blocked out of this sight
On the solitary side of darkness
Beating pulse in a stranger time and space."
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