Another night waking up feeling the panic crawling up my mind... I tried to stop it and think about what causes this feeling instead and I realized there are a few fears triggering this horrible feeling:
1. Fear of loss / being left
2. Fear of failure
3. Fear of loneliness
4. Fear of sickness
Whatever is the cause, maybe all of them, it just makes me so weak every time and I need to work on these 4 factors now, to be able to control this and stop feeling sick when it happens. This is not related to anyone, no one is the cause of this but me.
I am aware of myself and I know where I can improve, but I am also aware that I cannot take anymore breaking down because people feel they have to move away, because I will not find company, because I let work issues affect me too much, because people who meant something just walk away or replace me. Re-occuring themes in my life, I need to figure out why I attract this and make it better.
1. Fear of loss / being left
2. Fear of failure
3. Fear of loneliness
4. Fear of sickness
Whatever is the cause, maybe all of them, it just makes me so weak every time and I need to work on these 4 factors now, to be able to control this and stop feeling sick when it happens. This is not related to anyone, no one is the cause of this but me.
I am aware of myself and I know where I can improve, but I am also aware that I cannot take anymore breaking down because people feel they have to move away, because I will not find company, because I let work issues affect me too much, because people who meant something just walk away or replace me. Re-occuring themes in my life, I need to figure out why I attract this and make it better.
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