The last 3 years I only met men who had the same kind of behaviour, the same scheme of hurting me:
step 1 - flirting, telling me sweet words and how they find me oh so amazing and always were fascinated by me...
step 2 - build some common plans and dreams and catch my attention....
step 3 - make me fall for them, with even more sweet words and romance and just exactly what my heart is longing for...
step 4 - get me.... and show me how beautiful it all could be
step 5 - leave me cause oh, shit, now they got me and they saw that I'm actually just human and not this mystified person they wanted me to be but I also have my downsides and on the first bad mood or problem it's not fun anymore...
step 6 - me being broken hearted and miserable and thinking of what I have done wrong again....
step 7 - the guy finding someone else and being happy everafter
but really: what is wrong with the world? is it all so superficial that people don't know the true meaning of love anymore? that people are afraid to feel and see deeper? that people are scared from a first bad mood or problem or when they see my imperfections? I really feel I don't belong to this madhouse anymore. I can't stand being left anymore, being punished for errors before people even trying to see me deeper, see the beauty inside and not get scared of my passions and problems... I am not angry at anyone, no, I don't hate them, I don't want to talk them down, I am just realizing I have to step out of this vicious circle and get away from hurt.
step 1 - flirting, telling me sweet words and how they find me oh so amazing and always were fascinated by me...
step 2 - build some common plans and dreams and catch my attention....
step 3 - make me fall for them, with even more sweet words and romance and just exactly what my heart is longing for...
step 4 - get me.... and show me how beautiful it all could be
step 5 - leave me cause oh, shit, now they got me and they saw that I'm actually just human and not this mystified person they wanted me to be but I also have my downsides and on the first bad mood or problem it's not fun anymore...
step 6 - me being broken hearted and miserable and thinking of what I have done wrong again....
step 7 - the guy finding someone else and being happy everafter
but really: what is wrong with the world? is it all so superficial that people don't know the true meaning of love anymore? that people are afraid to feel and see deeper? that people are scared from a first bad mood or problem or when they see my imperfections? I really feel I don't belong to this madhouse anymore. I can't stand being left anymore, being punished for errors before people even trying to see me deeper, see the beauty inside and not get scared of my passions and problems... I am not angry at anyone, no, I don't hate them, I don't want to talk them down, I am just realizing I have to step out of this vicious circle and get away from hurt.
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